Reading before bed allows for some very vivid dreams.....viiivid.

I had a very boring day yesterday. All my friends were working so I ended up spending the day with my family. My mom and I harrassed many car salesmen and test drove a bunch of cars we will never buy. Then she cooked me a very unkosher meal which was nice of her considering how super anal she's been about dairy and meat dishes and keeping a kosher kitchen lately. Then I sat in my room reading.

Right around 8pm I began to doubt. However, I simply can not have any doubts about my abilities...to do so would be unthinkable...yet I did. It is an unforgivable sin on my mentality, and I have sinned. I woke up today feeling very crabby for it too.